So, this is probably the most personal/in-depth post I have ever written; and good-gosh has it taken a lot of thought and courage to post. But, here we go. Part of my life not many know starts in the next paragraph.
And by no means at all am I looking for attention or pity… That thought is the main reason I don’t publicize any of it. I kind of just wanted to share this to see if it would help me move on with my life and keep trying to live my normal day-to-day life. I’ve made it this far, why not keep going?!
I have been feeling really lousy for 18 months; fatigue, body aches, headaches, flu like symptoms and extremity paralysis. I’m completely exhausted and I have been slacking with my blog (Sorry to the readers…) and even my own well being.
I had meniscus surgery in September and I kind of overlooked my personal health for a few weeks. I recovered quickly from the surgery and quickly realized that the fatigue and body aches I was feeling wasn’t from the pain meds, it was just me. So, I went in to get blood tests at my naturopath doctor and they came back with some high blood glucose levels and I was immediately sent to Children’s Hospital Endocrinology in late October.
There, I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes on October 30th. So, for the last several months that has been one of my battles, or the least of my worries as I like to think of it. I’ve dealt with high levels and low levels, and both are equally as scary.
Two weeks went by and the doctors thought I would start feeling better and that insulin would do the trick of making me feel better. Well, they were quite mistaken and I actually started to feel worse. We went back to Children’s to a rheumatology specialist and got more blood tests; everything came back negative. The fatigue had gotten worse, I was beginning to have blurry vision, more paralysis and tingling, bad headaches and complete exhaustion.
What the heck is wrong?!
We went to a neurologist and they had nothing; got a brain MRI, nothing. So, here I am, January 13th, just trying to stay awake. I have been to so many doctors appointments that I start to get frustrated because I have answered the same questions, what seems like, 1000 times.
The latest update is that Lyme Disease is a highly probable reason of why I feel so sick. We have an appointment with a Lyme specialist at the end of January; I am praying for the best – whether that be starting treatments or ruling out Lyme. In the midst of my medical mystery, I am still dealing with T1D, and as of now, there is no cure.
Despite my battle with health complications, I know that life never truly sucks, that I am blessed beyond belief with loving parents, a warm house in the deadly cold Minnesota winters, and an unbelievable opportunity through Livin’ Life Man (livinlifeman.com), to live out a few hardships with a positive attitude – though it gets tricky and dark sometimes. I’m human, I guess that’s what happens.
Sorry that this whole deal was so long, I could give you all 1,000 more words with medical details, but I find that unnecessary. I thought I’d give you guys a little insight on my personal life in the last 8 months! I am doing my best to keep up with yoga, but I haven’t been able to run since August. So I really hope that this is all coming to an end soon so I can get my shoes back on, find some energy and hit the black top.
Let’s all strive to radiate positivity and live a vibrant life.
Key word, strive. Strive is a more positive sounding synonym for the word try. Don’t beat yourself up if you have a bad day and you just want to go home and not talk to anyone. We all get that life isn’t a piece of cake. It’s okay not to be okay. And it’s okay to be the most positive person in the room!
Keep on keepin’ on,